The start of my video journal

Hi all....
Enough with the heartache already. It's time to move on. Time to create a new me. I started a video diary on youtube today, which I will post here for all to see including me. I think seeing myself and hearing my own words and witnessing my struggles will keep me encouraged. Started detox this morning and promise not to get on the scale for the first nine days. I don't want to be ruled by the numbers. For more info on the best diet I've ever tried, go to www.fatsmashdiet.com. It's probably better just to google it though: fat smash diet - Google Search and check out the various videos and links.
That's all for now. Starting today at 267.8.
Donna

Heartache postpones diet start

Heartache tastes like day old tacos. It's a cold lump in the pit of my stomach, and I'm choking on the bitter acid.

I deserve the feeling though. I hurt someone I truly care about and I don't know if the damage can ever be fully repaired.

This one is different than any other heartache I've felt. I can't eat, my stomach is upset, my head is pounding. When I think I can't cry anymore, the tears start again.

I planned to start the Fat Smash diet today. Funny, I was worried about having enough food and being hungry. But I'm postponing it right now because I can't bring myself to eat.

Every time I've ever been upset, food has been my comfort - my shoulder to cry on. Today I can't bring myself to chew and oddly, there's no grumblings, no pangs of hunger. The thought of it makes me ill.

Another post later, I feel my eyes getting wet again. I need a tissue.

Countdown to Sunday

The year started without me. I can't begin a diet while there's still junk food in the house and I can't do the right thing and throw it out. So I've been eating hot dogs and pizza and frozen popsicles, which by the way, aren't even a favorite treat. But they're there. It's crazy, I know. Kind of like smoking an entire pack of cigarettes before quadruple bypass surgery just to get rid of the temptation later.

I am starting my diet Sunday, after dinner with friends Saturday night. My last hoorah! I feel confident this time that I will be able to stick to it and incorporate the exercise that I've discovered is a very important part of the dieting process. We so often define diet as limiting our intake of food, but it's so much more than that. It's not really limiting, it's readjusting. Changing our eating habits so that we consume more healthy foods, in quantities that satiesfy us without being excessive. And it's about movement - getting the blood pumping through our veins. Burn those calories! Burn baby Burn!

And the final part of a diet is probably the most crucial. More important than food intake, more important than exercise - it's support. You have to surround yourself with a great support system. We get fat on our own, and technically, we have to lose the weight on our own - no one can lose it for you. But a good support team around you makes that process all the more easier.

So thank you to my support team - the girls (and guy!) of my fatsmashing yahoo group. You guys are the best! We can do this!

A new year is around the corner

Dec. 29. Just a few more days and 2007 will be off and running. It's like that fresh calendar hanging on the wall with all 12 of its clean white sheets. It represents the potential we have for creating our own destiny. With this new year we have 365 white blocks that need to be filled. Will we stay on the path we have created - the one that is safe and familiar - or will we choose to step outside the box and do something different, something scary, something daring. Will this be the year for our total transformation?

2007 for me represents the year that I will transform my body, my mind, my spirit and my soul. I will become the person that has been 40 years in the making - the person I wanted to be when I grew up. I think it is time.

This blog will be a journey into my rediscovery of myself. You're welcome to come along for the ride. It might not be all smooth sailing, I'm warning you now. But the end result will be awesome.